One post a month!? About my sweet Felicity? Maybe it will get better when the other two girls are back in preschool. They'll be gone three days a week and we can't wait! Ha! I'm feeding Felicity a snack and I updated the other blogs, so I thought I'd better try and do hers too. It's not going great so far, she likes attention.
You know, Felicity really doesn't have it all. I didn't breast feed her, she only gets one nap a day, Veronica lies down on her ALL THE TIME, it's hard out there for a baby! I read all this crap about 'having it all' and I think, who does? WHO DOES? That Yahoo CEO or whatever is going to have her first baby at 37 and she's going to take maternity leave for a few weeks but she's going to work the whole time and I think what? Who? If you are working the whole time how can you be taking leave? What about the baby? Are you going to breast feed while you're working? What about when you're crying from breast feeding? Or is that just me? Do you have hormones or is there some way they get wiped out for rich people? For WORKING WOMEN? I don't know.
I think about having it all a lot lately, because of articles like this, or this, or this one, which I actually really liked. It seems like such a load of crap to me, but I don't think I'm even supposed to think about it, because since I don't work (much) OUTSIDE THE HOME, I'm not trying to have it all. I've given up! But I think, having thought a lot about it lately, that I have it all in a way that women who work outside the home don't. Maybe because I've given up? Maybe I know The Secret? The secret is this - it is stupid to think about having it all when it is physically, literally impossible to have it all. You can't be at home with your kids and giving them 100 percent of your attention AND be at an office, or even in a home office. It just doesn't make sense. I can't even give these fools 100% of my attention when I am with them and not even thinking about another job. I'm typing this right now, with Felicity in her high chair to my right! Her life is FLYING by me as I complain about it on the internet! Ha! Just kidding, mostly.
It's just so, so stupid and pointless. I can't have it all, I can't find someone to pay me for 40 hours a week AND stay home with my kids anymore than Felicity can find it in her schedule to take three good naps a day, not even two! I can't get the respect that Whatshername from Yahoo can get because I don't go to an office every day, any more than Felicity can get Veronica to STOP LAYING DOWN ON HER.
But I have it better than Felicity has it, because at least I made the decision to stay at home and get no damned respect. She didn't decide to be the fourth child, with her crazy mother. But I look at it like this - my brother John is the fourth of four, my cousin Margaret is the ELEVENTH of ELEVEN. They are fine! Good looking, smart, happy, fun. So I'm hopeful that even if Felicity doesn't have it all now, and even if she is a little overtired, she will end up just fine. And hopefully in the fall, when the others are all in school, I can document her success a little bit better. Like she is standing! And crawling a little! And is super cute! And can sign and say "Dad!" !!
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