Old

Today I was reading Twitter and some women were talking about how if they were younger when they started, maybe they'd have more.  One woman said that she wasn't YOUNG when she started, and she still had four.  That woman?  Was 27.  TEN YEARS YOUNGER than I was when I had Anthony.  Sometimes it is so hard to be so damned old and have all these kids, but not in the way that you'd think.  I mean, I am 44, so I am not, like, infirm or anything.  I am probably grumpier and more impatient than if I were 34 or 24 or whatever, but nothing makes me feel old like people talking about how they were kind of old when the age to which they are referring is like TEN years younger than the age I was when I started this mess.

Sometimes I think what am I doing?  How can I have a little baby and be this old?  I am trying to be younger, I am trying to sleep enough and exercise enough and eat well but man.  I am also OLD and SET IN MY WAYS.  So anyways, I'm sorry, Felicity, if your mother is so old.  I'm sorry that people will probably be like 'how nice that Felicity's grandmother brings her to school' when she is in Kindergarten.  Maybe (I'm hatching a plan here) I'll just start saying I'm her grandmother.  Then at least I'll seem YOUNG for my STATION!

Halloween

Felicity has had a busy few weeks.  She's had a cold, a sinus infection, a visit to her pediatric ENT, another cold, and her first real Halloween!  She was only three weeks old last year for Halloween, I think it's safe to say she enjoyed it more this year.  It was so warm and beautiful last year and this year it was kind of cold but I don't dare complain about it because for the second Halloween in a row, my NJ friends and family's kids couldn't go trick or treating on Halloween.  Last year, they had terrible snow and this year, of course, they have such problems from that storm I can't stand it.  Anyway.

I was afraid Felicity had an ear infection, she had a cold and runny nose for TWO weeks and it just seemed to get worse, so I took her in on Monday and he said she had a sinus infection and that her ear tube looked funny, so Tuesday I took her to see her (gorgeous) pediatric ENT but he said her tubes were fine, so that was good!  She has been sleeping badly and has been grumpy but overall she is plucky as hell, which I appreciate.

She was an elephant for Halloween, she was so cute.  She didn't love trick or treating, I probably shouldn't have taken her but I wanted to get her out in the air.  It's hard for her, and will be, I imagine, she gets drug along all these places and it's never about her.  But she's cute and sweet and that will get us all a long way, I bet.  Here's some pictures, of her on Halloween and through the fall.